Eff You See Kay - Phark. I flunked 2 tests today. Phark.


Friends. Haiz. I have lots of them. But, juz doesn't feel right.

I once read from somewhere that, friends are people who passes by your life, never with you forever. They help you complete part of your purpose in life, so that you can move on. Some friends are juz "hi-bye" friends, while others moves you on. Only a very small chance a few may follow you till the rest of your life.

Yea i have lots of friends. But... they... Haizz... A feeling of "so-near-yet-so-far". I can say i know them well, but, maybe i really don't. Yea i have a few buddies i know really well. But we dun really meet everyday also. The friends i met everyday now feels like... strangers. When i see them everyday, i dun know wat to say to them. They'll juz chat happily, laughing all the way. But, half the time, i dun even know what they are chatting or laughing about. I'll juz keep quite, watch by the sidelines and play with my wife(my N70). Juz feel.. so lonely, yet there are so many friends around me. Dunno what's wrong with me. Damn.

Maybe i can juz speak some rubbish sometimes, to connect back. Although i think its not going to work, it's worth a try. Maybe this happens cuz, i hanging out with friends of opp sex, when they do "girl talk", some stuff men weren't suppose to understand. Whatever.

Did some Tickle test today. To summarize, it says i'm dreaming to be self-reliable, unable to make up my mine and... i'm feminine. Wow. I'm a boy-girl.

*have been D R E A M I N G here on7:53 pm